So this is the suicide video of Gene Sprague… a short clip taken from ‘The Bridge’ a documentary about the suicides at the Golden Gate Bridge in San Fransico. It’s heart-breaking. This man had so much to give in life if only he had waited. He was loved by many, cared for by many but something sent him over the edge, something caused him to end his life on that day. Can you even begin to imagine what must have been running through his head as he sat on the railings? Can you even begin to think of how he must have felt as he stood up, about to dive?? Think about it. Does ANYONE need to go through that?? I honestly can’t even begin to contemplate the things he must have felt as he stood on that bridge. The thought is terrifying…

But apart from the terrible grief and sadness, I think we all have to pay attention to the words of his family and friends… Isn’t it shocking to think that if he had waited maybe just another few hours he would have heard the message offering him the job? Isn’t it terrible to think that his whole life would have been different if only he had hung in there for another few hours…

This is what I mean about not knowing what the future holds, about not wanting to be hasty… There is always something there to turn your life around - you just don’t know it… If you’re feeling at your lowest then you should know that things can only get better! Look at the grief and sadness and hurt that his family are going through… Is it really worth putting them through all of this?? The pain of losing you will never ever leave them…

But the other thing that strikes me is the ignorance… The ignorance of the people standing near him who didn’t notice this man sitting on the railing, climbing onto it, who didn’t make any effort to notice him as he sat there minutes before ending his life… And you may say that they didn’t know he was about to commit suicide, but as he sat there on the edge, no one bothered to tell him it was dangerous… No one made the effort to warn him, to show a bit of love and caring. That bit of caring might have been enough to stop him ending his life in such a horrible way, instead of feeling so invisible to the rest of the world…

Our attitude needs to change. We need to be aware of everyone, not just ourselves. We need to care and show more love… It can save lives.

And to anyone ever ever ever thinking of suicide, just remember this video - the incredible irony of the job offer, the sadness and pain of Gene’s family… Never feel like things won’t get any better, never feel like there’s nothing worth living for, never feel like you’re unloved. I promise you that there is at least someone out there who thinks the world of you, someone who will miss you when you’re gone, someone who will spend years and years crying over you. There are always better times ahead.

Please believe that, stay strong, and carry on my lovelies. Suicide is NOT the answer ♥ xx